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Is It Worth or Not?


Another day of interviews and job seeking, today, I attended the interview introduction session to one of Canada’s leading financial investors. As usual, this prospective job income is based on commission and need blah blahs power to sell the financial services. I know I needed a job, but I have no time for commission to come later, besides, my bubble talking and face to face selling power is too poor. I know myself that much when it comes to talking and getting the clients hooray. That is, I could sell lipstick better than selling financial services. Back to my normal job searching and let go. I could work hard selling financial services, provided that I am in salary base payroll not commission.

Duracell prucell C

I’m not sure bragging about duracell procell c, if these batteries really light up the world to keep going, what would be the used of the sun? Ha ha ha, this is such a blah question. Actually, now a day, at home, we occasionally use electronic stuff with alkaline batteries. It’s quite sometimes now that we have been using rechargeable batteries for almost all our electronic gadgets at home. We rarely use alkaline batteries, and if we do need them, I always use Duracell, energizer or Panasonic.  

Scorpion Exo

I knew it! I had thoughts that I know something about scorpion exo. My father is used to drive 2-wheeled Yamaha broom broom. I remember, he was driving a motorcycle until almost forever, imagine since I was two and then settled to four wheels when I was 37 years old. So that’s why I know a little bit about scorpion exo, helmets and motorcycle are always together.Even his not driving a bike this time, he stills keep one or two of his precious helmets. Right at the top of our kitchen cabinets, ohhhh the love of driving against the wind is always in his heart and double-take up on the cabinet sometimes it let him feels like driving again. In his dream! He sold his bike, ages ago.

Warrantee is Gone


Last March 2011, my almost 3 years old desktop computer crashed, I lost everything in the memory bag. All I’ve got is the exact computer but nothing in it, just a computer. I am a blogger, and losing the precious avid companion really sucks your day and everything that connects to it. That also includes, not bidding goodbyes to your chatting buddies. The only thing at home that I am too attached, don’t count the family because they are not things. Some are too connected to their smart phones and me to my computer. And today, my computer crashed again for the second time around. Bloody warrantees, they changed my memory pack and whatever was there to change and it only last for 9 months, shit! I thought it would last at least two to three years, because I assumed that they were using the new stuff for the old broken ones. Bulls. I was wrong, it usually last for more than 9 months. Suckeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrs.

Cutting Tools

What’s the first thing in your mind, if you are to be asking about cutting tools? I’d say that depends on what are most significant things happened to me just few hours ago or in the past days. Honestly, reading about cutting tools, makes me think about my small knives at home that were broken, that now, I am using the biggest knife in my kitchen. Which is a little bit off when cutting small cooking ingredients? Why is that so? Chefs are usually using big knives. But I used to use small knives for cuttings, so it’s more on what it is “use to be”.

Best Friend Gifts for Foodies

I need not to worry about how to make my friends happy in the coming New Year. I did not bother to give them any presents. We’re all grownups and only enjoyed giving holiday gifts to our kids. Which were already done way days ago, the weakness of my group of friends is food, food and plenty of foods. I planned for best friend gifts for foodies friends of mine....is, food buffet, a Chinese buffet special for the holiday. The price is right, the place is gorgeous newly renovated restaurant and accessible to all of us. Unfortunately, this plan must be realised after New Year’s 2012, since everybody is pretty hooked up with their New Year’s plans as well.

What's Next For 2012?


Yes, 2011 is almost over and it’s time to have another plan, if 2011 resolutions did not work. When are we going to stop pretending about this New Year’s resolution? For the sake of having it and saying it loud, give-up! I gave up long time ago, financial planning is more important for my family and the rest are come what may. How about getting insurance? And, start at Term life insurance Quotes, then savings.  Life is short. I don’t indulge too much time in planning and sticking to it, because I rule, not my check list. Even though my mind is set to do things in order, we are still in the midst of ‘hanging on there”, mannnn, I need a job and pay bills. Soon, I bet!

Cufflinks

Merry Christmas and happy holidays that gives you delight, ecstatic, excited and never forget that you’re also getting broke. Ahhhh! Holidays and merry, at home we only give presents to our tot as long as his doing good in school and nothing about Christmas. We are not Christian, but our tot’s presents will be given during the holiday. I do scour around for hubby’s present not for the holiday but for our anniversary. It’s coming soon. I planned to give him belt and cufflinks. These surely serve him good, since he could use it every day for work. So far, this time is the easiest gifts I have in mind. Happy holidays!

Vox Night Train

Huh! What is this? It looks like an old radio, forgive me but I have no idea about this vox night train the minute I saw it. It looks like just an old plain radio. Well, you cannot judge a thing by its look, tinkering or read about them says everything, I bet. And, some says, “if looks could kill”, I’ll be the dumbest dead then about the Vox Night Train. There you go! I’ve read about it, and I now know that it’s an amplifier. Interesting...Yes, amplifier could actually have great impact when music is played. I do like the classic style box, but not going to have it now. May be one day, when my son will learn his guitar, maybe his going to have one of this.

Money Aches

Everybody seems over excited and could not stop mumbling about their shopping’s spree. Since my butt and face are glued to the internet, if not the whole day but most of my time at home.  That is, every beat of my mouse click, says, shopping, splurging holiday discounts and spending. Genial! I heard and read them. And gosh, there is no temptation in me because we are totally broke, though credit cards are available and way too roomy, gee I have no guts to spend around swiping myself to absolute poorness of me in the future. Can we just celebrate the holidays without splurging at all?! I bet, it works because, we’ve been poor for ages now, and there were no fussed about shopping and holiday presents. It’s been 3 weeks now since I stopped taking fliers, there freaking me out, with all the sales and discounts, plus the Black Friday and Cyber Monday Sales. Geesh, my son is eating me slowly, keeps on bugging me about buying stuff because of the fliers. That is why I stopped looking at them.

Everything in my household world is easily manage by me and it would be more glorious if I have the bloody money. Yahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!


Could it be in Edmonton

Four years now since we arrived in this so called promise land of greenery. Applying as skilled-immigrant squeezed you to the last sweat of your might. I have considered and let go many hopes and opportunities the moment I started the immigration processing, I leave my promising job that pays well, behind, because I thought that maybe there will be better opportunities in crossing the border outside my country than staying foot. For years of agonizing hardship and difficulty concerning money and job, though I am still thankful because hubby has good jobs that provide us our daily needs. At the moment my mind is not yet set to be living in this city for good. And, I have this thought that we could may be moved to other city or province, could be in Alberta, if I will be given an opportunity to work there, living in one of the Edmonton apartments is considered. Since, I love the easy living especially during winter season. Gosh, snow that you can never imagine where it came from.

Yes, lately I am in to start looking for a job all over again since, our pregnancy did not push through. And this Edmonton living opportunities keep on coming to my senses. If I’m talking to my intuition right now, I may be crazy thinking such idea, when in fact, my hubby is not even talking about moving to other province or leave his jobs. Knock on wood! I am already suffering how to balance our book and paying bills, oh please God, and let him keep his jobs.

Therapeutic Abortion

That’s the name they called to my pain, with abdominal cramps and pelvic pressures. Until when am I going to end my suffering? Because until now I’m still mumbling about myself losing our precious bundle, is everything blurry right now? I thought that I’m done with my so called therapeutic abortion. I still have to undergo series of blood sucking test and ultra sound. I know that it’s all for my health.  The longer I go through these “after pregnant” tests, the more heartbreaking I feel about losing someone. I don’t even know how to feel depress, especially that hubby is not cooperating how I feel and what I felt right now. Though, he is sympathetic of my situation but not living with it. This is a solo flight trauma for me. Yes, life must go on, but it’s only 5 days ago. Don’t I have time of my own brooding my greatest loss? We’re all entitled to, I assumed.

I’ve gone through:
 
1.    To painful inducing medicine to get rid of my not developing baby.
2.    To feel the longing, to what I have lost.
3.    To developing depression, and trying fighting it to continue taking care of my living family.

It’s not easy to carry the value of losing a love one, when you’re alone facing it. I certainly still have the power to control myself to move on to normal life. I’m still aware right now, of what I am doing. Life must go on, that’s what you said.

Going To Calgary

I wish and I wish, hitting the lotto jackpot would mean everything for my family right now. We are totally broke, and I hope life could change rapidly or in an instant. Winter season is almost here, and enjoying the snow in Christmas will be fabulous if it would be spent in a snowy vacation territory, like going to rent, to one of rent Calgary houses for the cold season. That is, of course possible if this week 50 Million dollars lotto will be won by us.

Gosh, I’m dreaming again. Though, we just had our long vacation in Asia last summer, yet I feel we needed it now, the most. Our family right now needed a solemn and adventurous break from our normal daily life. Hubby is working too hard without any break. I am busy taking care of the household and our son’s school activities to bedtime and were still coping the loss of our “should be” second child, just few days ago. That is why. We needed the break and this Calgary, Alberta escapade idea seems like star landed on our palm, gosh the accommodations in the Calgary Inner City itself are pretty comfy. Money, money, money!

I heard about Calgary quite often. That winter is harsh, that is, white Christmas will definitely happen. We do have terrible winter and snow in Toronto. So, going there for few weeks in the coming Christmas holidays would be delightful, I bet. Gee, could it be one of my days dreaming again. Not really! I’m actually wide awake.

Painful

I could not comprehend why, some or few women will undergo abortion for the reason of, they are not married or not ready for motherhood, exception for clinical reasons. I just loss our “should be” second baby, clinically the baby is not growing and not developing, at the 11th week, our baby had no heartbeat, and I was bleeding furiously, a miscarriage, I was told. There’s was no hope of survival, and there were no other options but to clean my womb. There’s this extraction of the fetus through viginal canal. The pain of inducing it was more than horrible, it was fiercely painful, had felt it for agonizing five hours and more, crawling on the floor, bleeding and crying in pain. I could not picture how others who undergo underground abortion, to feel how I felt last night. It was beyond pain and what is hell. For every cramp and pain, I sweat like just had a 40 degrees C fever. My inducing medicine will be taken every other day, tonight I will be off pain, but tomorrow, I may be will suffer again for hours, until my pregnancy test would result negative.

The pain of losing a child is not comparable to the pain of our body when losing it. Emotional and spiritual pains are lighter to feel but prolong, that is, it’s more painful to endure in the long run. Acceptance is the cure.



Moms Christmas Gifts

There are hundreds of moms christmas gifts available in the market today, especially in the Personal Creations dot com, and on until Christmas, I always give them cash, since my mother always love to shop by herself than we give her something that we like and love for her. In short, we want her to enjoy her gifts by her choice. If I were to decide for her gifts, jewellery is always her weakness and even swoon for it. Yes, touchy and sentimental, it’s her favourite pieces of things on earth after us. This year, I don’t know if I could spare gifts for my Mom, since my wallet is already drain. My mother have medical maintenance, it’s like Christmas every day. Since, we already spent our Christmas presents for her medicine. Too bad to that I considered it as Christmas presents, it’s actually for the holiday presents savings, but it was given a little bit early, since Mama needed the money. Happy Christmas Mama and Tatay! I’m hoping for prosperous blessings and good health this year, and more years to come.


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